About a year ago in my last blogpost, I said we should never be afraid to fall and make mistakes.

If we make mistakes, we can just choose to stand up again. Sometimes it takes alot of humility to say “I am in the wrong”. That is how God breaks our pride and mold us. This is how we grow. Making mistakes is really part of life.

If we are afraid of what will happen when we fall, we’ll never learn to walk, which effectively stops us from learning how to run.

The best part from that fall? Knowing that God is always there to hold us up, if we choose to to rise from it again. And that after each fall, we learn to run further than we did before the fall.

Well, a year has passed. As I look back at my posts, I began to realise how things have changed. To be honest with myself, I think I still struggle with making mistakes. It’s a battle in my head over that choice I make. I have a tendency to imagine how others would feel, and if I feel that the thing I might be doing is a mistake and will cause others to have a negative feeling towards it, I pull myself to a stop.

Oversensitive? Maybe.. I definitely need to learn to rely more on God in this area.

In a month’s time, I’m finally going to ORD from the army. Can’t wait to get back my freedom and time.. These 2 years didn’t go in vain. In fact, I felt that I’ve learned much more in these 2 years, than my last 19 years. God really gave me an opportunity to see and learn how to be a leader, both in the house of God, and in the world. I’ve got a feeling it’s not going to end here, but much more will come. I think God is really just warming me up these 2 years for the bigger tests.. haha.

Running with the horses and being the clay in the Potter’s hands. Keep molding me into a vase, a vessel of honor for you God.